Monthly Archives: December 2013

What I wish I Could Tell You (For the Future Spiritual Sexual Healer/Dakini or Daka)

by Ryan Orrock

Today, a beautiful person came to me excited with the opportunity to use her power and sexuality in healing. (November 9, 2013). It prompted me to write the following.

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I wish I could tell you about the magical journey that lies before you. I wish I could show you the many faces of all the people you will help.

I wish I could describe the deep satisfaction that comes from touching people in the most powerful way they have ever been touched.

But you know this. You smell it already.

Which is why I see excitement, the pleasure, the hunger burned in your eyes.

I also the defiance. The seduction. The unpredictable wantoness mixed with pure joy.

You know who you are. Even while you are still searching for yourself.

You know what you are here to do, even though you have no idea exactly what that will entail.

But you have it inside. You have always had it. Ever since you were small. That flame.

A flame your parents probably fought. Society tried to extinguish. A flame that almost everyone around you said could only end in a catastrophically destructive conflagration.

But you didn’t listen–you believe them. At least not always.

You have been scarred, but not broken. Attacked, but not destroyed.

You, are still here.

And in a very special way, that flame burns brighter than ever.

Thank you for allowing me to see it.

And now some words of experience.

This won’t be easy.

It will be the hardest thing you have ever done, in many ways.

You will probably continue to be opposed by society. Many of your friends, even loves, will not understand you. Some will reject you for following where this flame leads.

Your soul will be torn in two at times in the seeming conflict between your happiness and your mission.

Many people will appear offering to help. Some of them will leave deep scars.

But your knowledge will continue to increase. Your flame will grow brighter and brighter, until it consumes everything that opposes it.

This will be a long and arduous journey. A journey for a queen. A journey for a heroine.

There is nothing of perfection in this journey. But everything of greatness.

Never give up and the gods themselves will be in awe of you.